Thursday, October 06, 2011

It hurts me worse than it hurts you; I promise, it's true!

It's been one of those days.

On the parenting front, we've had to be heavy on the discipline this week with Addison. She has been boycotting her naps at school, which consequently makes her boycott obeying, listening, being nice, etc.

I feel like I have had to stay. on. her.

Tonight it was one thing after another. During bath time Ansley's antics had me smiling and cackling, and Addison quietly said, "Mom, will you smile at me?"

Such a simple, innocent request from my little girl who had been in and out of "trouble" for the last hour.

Overcome with my [and her] need for grace, I picked up my independent girl, who is testing every boundary she can find, right out of the bathtub with water dripping everywhere, hugged her and told her that I will always smile at her, always love her, and always think she is my most precious big girl--that I was her mommy and had to discipline her so that she would know right from wrong, but I would ALWAYS love her.

She hugged me back and said, "Thanks for forgiving me, Mom."

Just now, as I went to check on her, I prayed that the Lord would show me grace, that He would lead my discipline, that He would affirm Addison, that He would shape her heart, and that He would protect our relationship.

Never have I understood what our parents told us as much as I do now.

1 comment:

Karen said...

LOOOOOOOVE this!!!! Micah once asked me if I still loved him when he was in time out. My gosh, little boy, I love you even more when you're in time out. Now, it has become regular conversation: "I love you even when you're in trouble, even when you hit Rowan, even when..."